Magical Mess

Like you accept me I know I test your limits and exasperate But you still want to take me out on a movie date I don’t know if people can relate. But I’m glad you come around, when I’m not thinking sound   I sometimes jump on you like an animal But you still think that I’m silly, but adorable Your love is just so palpable I act like I make all the laws, you still kiss me on my flaws   A petulant verbose diva, who won’t admit to mistakes, make a fuss out of a snowflake And then you start counting, all the brilliant things I am, you say you’ll always be my fan   You’re kind to all my unreasonable insecurities and I can’t wrap my head around this discrepancy That you pick at the little things that go wrong with you, when there was nothing really anything you could do Your eyesight has been weak lately, that’s why you can’t see That you should accept yourself, like you accept me   All your business ideas are immaculate You show up even when you’re not i

  Healing through a glass pane Have you ever seen a glass pane? Have you seen it with pain? Swathe yourself in its admiration Dig until it offers a revelation   It presents an amalgamation of visions It offers choices with precision   You can either look through it Get going, make your morning coffee and brew it You can pay attention to what’s waiting on the other side You’re hurting already and this one is painful to decide   Or you can focus on your own dull reflection Read aloud your story’s most excruciating section Scan everything that surrounds Find things that shake you, make you lose your ground   Don’t haste the pick for there is a third option You’re both the bidder and the seller at this auction You can choose to merely look at the glass Stay in the emotion, inhale it until it is ready to pass   Neither hustling to be whole Nor regressing against the goal Just feel the pain to heal the pain Have you seen a glass pane? -Maithi

 Let's Trade Let’s trade, you give me the liberty to be the shimmering sparkle that I am I’ll pay you with my parents’ sweat and blood earned wealth You make sure no one dares to tell me what I cannot and what I can I’ll pay you with my ruined mental health You let me wear what I want without judgements I’ll pay you with sleep deprivation You fill my life with rewards for the time spent I’ll pay you with chronic isolation Let’s trade -Maithili    

 Are you hiring? I talk to a few people and improvise my resume Walk to the college IT room, hit print 15 and pray Gather a few friends for another job seeking spree Subway is hiring if you work the first three weeks for free A knave suggested to me that Canada was a sea of opportunities My throat is dry of requests and I'm weak in my knees The manager said they just stopped hiring in the mall Another day has passed without receiving a call Answering Dad's texts is getting mentally tiring Another day of asking in every store, "Are you hiring?" -Maithili