Magical Mess

 I'm a calamity I'm afraid of my thoughts a chaos  I run from rumination but I can't seem to leave it behind  so intelligent I lose my mind what music can't tame I'm up against my brain  I give it information to consume when I don't, it consumes me instead I think more than what's been said then I open the DSM hoping it would answer my what, why and when I try one book after another  and nothing has been said about what's it like inside my head It's a battle I dread I'm up against my head I run and I run But how do you run from what's inside  imagine intelligence having a downside -maithili 

 if I called upon the gods as much as I called his name they would've gifted me a galaxy and revealed the rules of their game I would be bestowed with good fortune  I would shine against all odds if I called upon the gods as much as I called his name I dive headfirst  and it aches my heart before my skulls hurts gave him my crazy from the start and he didn't know the art of love and being crazy about me I tried to articulate  and he responded with his nods things wouldn't be the same if I called upon the gods as much as I called his name  the same mistake  one basket : all my eggs said he could carry my flame but I'm standing on my own two legs I cancelled on people to be with him he planned with his friends cancelling on his dame got no one to blame because I didn't call upon the gods instead of calling his name -Maithili