The mess that I made- a song

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 The mess that I made

picture from: @omario2d


I was afraid to say
That I was slipping away
Till I couldn't force myself back anymore
And so I cut all ties
Almost like I burnt him alive
Now I'm hollow b'cause guilt ate up my core

Just like my favourite song
That I've been singing along
But got so sick of it that I can't anymore
Swore I'd protect his heart
Said 'till death do us part'
But stabbed and twisted where he was already sore

But if the sun deserves to shine, if my intentions weren't malign
Take all the pain from his heart and pour it in mine
This is my prayer for him, bring love and hope to the betrayed
Don't punish me by punishing him for the mess that I made

It killed me everytime I lied
And now I'm dead inside
Can't carry the weight of love anymore
I hope he takes it slow
Beg him to let me go
For he deserve better than an attention seeking whore

The love of his life
Wish I could be his wife
But I can't even be myself anymore
Would've given him all of me
But I'm so empty
That I can't love him the way he does anymore

But if the sun deserves to shine, if my intentions weren't malign
Take all the pain from his heart and pour it in mine
This is my prayer for him, bring love and hope to the betrayed
Don't punish me by punishing him for the mess that I made

-Maithili


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