you don't understand

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my friends don’t understand

what has gone

so terribly wrong

why

I cry

for a guy

that I haven’t even known that long

I mourn not the weeks we spent

my tears

are for the years

we won’t

the songs we’d dance to

the lyrics I was going to dedicate to you

my heart aches for the faith I had in us

I scream,

 for our hopes and dreams

the snowboarding lessons I was about to get

you hadn’t even officially asked me out yet

I’m broken

because

I wanted you to be my man

I tried articulating my heart

but you didn’t understand

-maithili

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