Magical Mess

  Miss decisive picture from: @pazel_global Miss decisive, Miss complete clarity, uff, I needed a break Letting myself make bad decisions is the best decision I’ll make   Sabotaging my relationships with people who love me most Crying all day and spending my night raising a toast I hate nightclubs here, but drinking is in trend Getting the digits off that Spanish guy to only be a friend Expecting the world from people who never cared Not taking my stand where I should’ve ’cause I’m scared Being beset by the drama I could’ve easily avoided Sulking because of something stupid a random boy did Sleeping close in this best friend’s bed tonight Sharing everything on my skin while concealing my internal fight I haven’t processed anything since my life switched gears I’m choking on my tainted self-esteem and overpowering fears I’ll be left alone because I confuse people But when you have no one, you can’t lose people This year, I’ll be shamelessly reckless and this year I won’t try to fi

 The mess that I made picture from: @omario2d I was afraid to say That I was slipping away Till I couldn't force myself back anymore And so I cut all ties Almost like I burnt him alive Now I'm hollow b'cause guilt ate up my core Just like my favourite song That I've been singing along But got so sick of it that I can't anymore Swore I'd protect his heart Said 'till death do us part' But stabbed and twisted where he was already sore But if the sun deserves to shine, if my intentions weren't malign Take all the pain from his heart and pour it in mine This is my prayer for him, bring love and hope to the betrayed Don't punish me by punishing him for the mess that I made It killed me everytime I lied And now I'm dead inside Can't carry the weight of love anymore I hope he takes it slow Beg him to let me go For he deserve better than an attention seeking whore The love of his life Wish I could be his wife But I can't even be myself anymore